Since u wanna disregard how i feel about things, just because u think i'll eventually get over it, fine. Just remember thats how u wanted things to be, & thats how u treated me when i was tryna change & better things.
the vibes ive been gettin from you discourage me.
all this negativity brings out the worst in me.
im starting to feel like maybe i should think twice about the changes im making before they really start to set in.
it seems as if i have forgotten about what happened when i put myself in this type of position in the past .
i dont wanna go through that , nor do i wanna get close to feeling like that ever again .
now is my time to back off .
i've come far enough . its time you meet me half way .
Thursday, December 3, 2009
Wednesday, December 2, 2009
Tuesday, December 1, 2009
another one of those nights .
so again, its just one of those nightsss ..
Seems like now a days yer always "sleepy"..
Theres a slight change in you.. i'm sensing somethin negative in the change..
But idk.. I dont feel like digging into it.
The disappoitment in the obvious is enuff. Finding more disappointment in the hidden isnt what i need right now.
Tomorrow is my first official day at work.
i'm kinda excited. i dont really know wut to expect, so i'm hoping by not having any expectations would be a good thing.
I kinda wanted to talk about my day, about tomorrow, all that good stuff..
But i guess me wanting to talk in the night time all the time is an inconvenience to the person i usually turn to..
To be honest.. These are the times where i really begin to miss certain things.
But i dont feel like getting into that right now..
All i need to worry about is preparing myself for what lies ahead..
I feel something bad coming along. Not soon. But soon enough.
But after, something really good is gunna happen for me.
Just a premonition tho. Could be right, could be wrong.
i'm hoping for the best tho.
I feel like somethings missing but i dont know what it is.
I feel like i'm lacking something that i desparately need right now, but idk wut it is...
I need that someone to show me what i'm missing.
Ugh.
Seems like now a days yer always "sleepy"..
Theres a slight change in you.. i'm sensing somethin negative in the change..
But idk.. I dont feel like digging into it.
The disappoitment in the obvious is enuff. Finding more disappointment in the hidden isnt what i need right now.
Tomorrow is my first official day at work.
i'm kinda excited. i dont really know wut to expect, so i'm hoping by not having any expectations would be a good thing.
I kinda wanted to talk about my day, about tomorrow, all that good stuff..
But i guess me wanting to talk in the night time all the time is an inconvenience to the person i usually turn to..
To be honest.. These are the times where i really begin to miss certain things.
But i dont feel like getting into that right now..
All i need to worry about is preparing myself for what lies ahead..
I feel something bad coming along. Not soon. But soon enough.
But after, something really good is gunna happen for me.
Just a premonition tho. Could be right, could be wrong.
i'm hoping for the best tho.
I feel like somethings missing but i dont know what it is.
I feel like i'm lacking something that i desparately need right now, but idk wut it is...
I need that someone to show me what i'm missing.
Ugh.
Sunday, November 29, 2009
updateeee
Even though ive been home since this afternoon, i still feel like i havent been home in a long time ..
i'm layin in bed wit nothin really to do at the moment , so i decided to blog since i havent in a while ..
Vegas was pretty fun.. i thought it was going to be a lot more fun, but i guess its cuz i had high expectations. Still fun none the less though. The best day was Friday. Ate wingstop, shopped for hourrrssss at fashion mall wit just the girlsss<3, then hit the strip wit Maii, Ry, & Brother. On the strip, we first visited Gameworks, & i showed off my fantastical GuitarHero skills. Then hit the M&M store, looked around there, the whole place smelled like chocolate. While walking outside of all the stores, Brother & Ry were collecting "PornoMon" cards to see who could collect the most lol. We ended up meeting a white guy who tried competing. But we all knew Brother was the winner lolll. Then, once we were in front of planet hollywood, there were dancers who had a crowd watching em, & Ry decided to jump in & dance too! Lololol. As the crowd watched, he made it rain wit all the PornoMon cards he had been collecting hahaha. Great laughs there.. On our way back to Paris to meet my parents, just when we thought our night of fun was ending, we run into Timothydelaghetto, Rick, & Eric !! Catch us all on this newest vlog ! :)
Saturday was pretty cool too.. Asia buffet was bomb cuz i havent had good cream cheese wontons in a long time.. Everyone spent so much quarters on fingerbands lolol. I got a P haha. TJ Maxx was so much fun. Twizzles, Me, & Sabrina we're probably the loudest ones there from all our laughing lol! From trying on boots, sunglasses, hats, playing with lil kids toys, to stuffing Tiff inside a suitcase & dragging her all around the store! Hahahha
That was basically the highlights of the weekend.. Thinkin of all the laughs actually made me feel better.
Before i started blogging, i was upset.. But now i just dont even feel like letting boy problems get me down anymore.. Especially ones that i kno aren't gunna change..
I have so much else to be happy & thankful for that wasting energy & feeling down about shit like that isnt even worth it..
It is what it is. Survival of the fittest. I wanna be a GiRLFRiEND. Not a mother who always has to tell u right from wrong, wut to do & wut not to do.
Night night ! :)
i'm layin in bed wit nothin really to do at the moment , so i decided to blog since i havent in a while ..
Vegas was pretty fun.. i thought it was going to be a lot more fun, but i guess its cuz i had high expectations. Still fun none the less though. The best day was Friday. Ate wingstop, shopped for hourrrssss at fashion mall wit just the girlsss<3, then hit the strip wit Maii, Ry, & Brother. On the strip, we first visited Gameworks, & i showed off my fantastical GuitarHero skills. Then hit the M&M store, looked around there, the whole place smelled like chocolate. While walking outside of all the stores, Brother & Ry were collecting "PornoMon" cards to see who could collect the most lol. We ended up meeting a white guy who tried competing. But we all knew Brother was the winner lolll. Then, once we were in front of planet hollywood, there were dancers who had a crowd watching em, & Ry decided to jump in & dance too! Lololol. As the crowd watched, he made it rain wit all the PornoMon cards he had been collecting hahaha. Great laughs there.. On our way back to Paris to meet my parents, just when we thought our night of fun was ending, we run into Timothydelaghetto, Rick, & Eric !! Catch us all on this newest vlog ! :)
Saturday was pretty cool too.. Asia buffet was bomb cuz i havent had good cream cheese wontons in a long time.. Everyone spent so much quarters on fingerbands lolol. I got a P haha. TJ Maxx was so much fun. Twizzles, Me, & Sabrina we're probably the loudest ones there from all our laughing lol! From trying on boots, sunglasses, hats, playing with lil kids toys, to stuffing Tiff inside a suitcase & dragging her all around the store! Hahahha
That was basically the highlights of the weekend.. Thinkin of all the laughs actually made me feel better.
Before i started blogging, i was upset.. But now i just dont even feel like letting boy problems get me down anymore.. Especially ones that i kno aren't gunna change..
I have so much else to be happy & thankful for that wasting energy & feeling down about shit like that isnt even worth it..
It is what it is. Survival of the fittest. I wanna be a GiRLFRiEND. Not a mother who always has to tell u right from wrong, wut to do & wut not to do.
Night night ! :)
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