cant handle the heat ;

so im stayin out the kitchen !
lol jk .


its been hot as fackk since saturday ! i cant stand it .
ok ok , so my busy weekend finally came to a slow once the week started . booooo @ that .

Saturday :
--woke up extra early , had to do some chores around the house .. waited for Karla & Josh to meet me & broskee at my house..
we were supposed to be at the beach by 11:30 to meet Bebe & Rick , but they didnt even get to my house til almost 2 ! WTF ?!
so after what seeeemed like forever , i ended up having to drive my car cuz josh had "things" to handle . smh . got to the beach round 2somethin . went swimmin in the waves for a couple hours .. Brandon on the boogie board , drifted wayyy the fuck out in the ocean wit the dolphins some how & the lifeguard had to save him.. LOL wtf.. -_- then we hit mickieeee deeez , waited for Bebe to finish showering at his house , then booked to my house .
karla left , then i showered , got ready & Bebe decides to take me shoppin ! we left around 5ish , shopped til about.. 7.
went back home , dropped off the bags & waited for my stupid phone to charge for a lil . thank you for the shoppin spree baby :)<3
then around 8 , we headed to the wesssssside . waited on a dub for like half an hour -_- but to our surprise , we got more than what we bargained for ! it was worth the wait , got deuce dub sacks for the price of one for bein so patient . good lookin' (you kno who u are!)
finally , around 9 , headed to Samantha's bday kick backk . got there , bebe & i were a couple of wall flowers for a koo minute.. LOL (no diss intended boo) hahah . popped around 9:30 , hit the blunt a few times , enjoyed the high wit the music , & finally started rollin around 10 .
gave dances & light shows for everyone , took pics , all that good stuff , then dipped to drop baby off .
didnt end the night on such a good note.. but sa'll good.
got home round 2 , phone wit boo til about 3 or 4 , cant really remember , but all the while still rollin .
clean ass roll btw . bebe fell asleep on me , guess his wore off . mine didnt . laid in bed , tried to sleep , failed. lol
bumped music while layin in bed , yadda yadda.. finally fell asleep at almost 7.

busy busy all sunday as well , too lazy to type . it wasnt as bomb as saturday tho .

bebe has been gone since monday . i miss him :(
he finally comes back tomorrow , i'll be at work to pass the time , so sa'll goooood .
then hes gunna take me to dinner tomorrow night at CPK for his first timeee :) .
cant wait til fridaaaay !!

im lovin' life right now . thank you papabear♥





-- deuces .

i DESERVE ; because im TiRED of everything .

i deserve more than what i've been getting .
i deserve to trust & be trusted in return .
i deserve to be treated like a queen .
i deserve to be spoken to with respect ; without having to hear cuss words in every sentence .
i deserve to not be questioned about everything i do .
i deserve to do things without having to hear complaints .
i deserve to go out wen i want without having to hear parents bitch , as well as my boyfriend .
i deserve to have a relationship without having to take everything so fuken seriously .
i deserve a moment to cry happy tears instead of sad, frustrated, or mad tears .
i deserve to be able to express my emotions without having to apologize for them .
i deserve to check my myspace, facebook, twitter, etc. without being accused of "flirting" .
i deserve to have guy friends while i have a boyfriend .
i deserve to make decisions without the criticism .
i deserve to be UNDERSTOOD .

im tired of always having to ask for things to be done .
im tired of things being done only because i asked .
im tired of things not being done without having to be asked !
im tired of stupidity .
im tired of immaturity .
im tired of double standards .
im tired of going to the store & having to deal with workers who barely speak english .
im tired of people who automatically start speaking spanish to me just because i reside in LA .
im tired of "i love NY" shirts being sold in LA ; wtfff ?
im tired of people who know im filipino & start speaking to tagalog to me , assuming i'd understand .
im tired of people using "hella" after every other word as if "really" and "very" dont even exist anymore .
im tired of people saying they're "REAL" when they're real-ly NOT .
im tired of people saying "they dont give a fuck" when clearly , they DO .
im tired of people saying they listen to "everything" ; muhfcuka if you dont listen to heavy metal or country , that ISNT everything !
im tired of females complaining that their "hella cute" or "fine as fuck" boyfriend might be cheating , or flirting behind their backs ; NO SHiT , find yerself a nerd instead .
im tired of seeing people talking on their bluetooth while holding their cell phone in their hands ; wtff ?
im tired of LiL WAYNE ; i've heard his songs a milli a milli a million times ! hes played out , his new shit is WACK . Clipse killed him , look that shit up & GET FAMiLiAR .
im tired of still having to hear bout Michael Phelps ; no body cares bout swimming !!
im tired of seeing girls dress like sluts , wit their titties poppin out their shirt & ass hangin out their shorts like 'what it do?' then complain about "perverts" . smh , dumb bitches these days..
im tired of good girls like ME , MAii , & TiFF who have boyfriends that like looking at those type of girls i just mentioned !! wtf
im tired of seein females givin THEMSELVES long ass nick names like lady sexydoodooheadbitchwhachukno or miss sexybitchcuntfacebitchimthebombliketicktick . first of all , just cuz you have "lady" or "miss" in front of ur nickname does not make you grown , & second thats not cute at all . re-fuckin-lax !
im tired of people hittin me up askin me to "comment their pics" . bitch nigga , if you was fine or important enough , i'd comment on my own without you having to ask !
im tired of triflin' ass niggas who wants the perfect "wifey" type , but yet they cant act rite . smh , go fuck yourself nigga .
im tired of skinny bitches always sayin they're fat when they know they're not .
im tired of bein tired .

when will it ever endddd ?!



-- deuces .

stolen from Maii :)

mine & joseph's answers . lol :)


Where was the FIRST time you ever saw the person you like?
J: Venice .
L: Venice .


Is there a night you would like to put on repeat, and live it forever?
J: no.
L: no.

Is the last person you kissed mad at you?
J: she WAS .. lol
L: uhh.. he WAS


Whats going on between you and the last person you kissed?
J: uhhh intermediate relationship , and talking on the phone . LOL
L: talking on the phoneeee . thats my strrroooong man !


Can you recall the last time you loved someone?
J: yes , you .
L: yes , NOW !


Someone knocks on your window at 2 am, what do you say?
J: if its a banging knock, cuz i live in the ghetto, i'd say.. "WHO THE FUCK IS THAT?"
L: um.. i probably wouldnt hear the knock cuz im a heavy sleeper... LOL

Will you be in a relationship next month?
J: hopefully ?
L: i hope so ?

Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
J: Lauren now .
L: Joseph now .


Anyone you're giving up on?
J: no .
L: no .


Have you ever fallen asleep with the last person you kissed?
J: lotta times k. (lmfao)
L: lotta times !


What were you doing at 10:30 last night?
J: either sleeping or talking on the phone with you (lauren) .
L: sameee !


Will your next kiss be a mistake?
J: no
L: no

Has anyone put their arms around you in the past 5 days?
J: yes . we needed to get a room remember ? (lmfaoooo insider)
L: yes .


Does it bother you when someone lies to you?
J: yes .
L: doesnt everyone get bothered wen they're lied to ?


Are you easily bothered?
J: sometimes .
L: most of the time ... lol


Are you nice to everyone?
J: at first , yea .
L: most the time .


Are you wild and crazy?
J: yes , when my girlfriend lets me. lol
L: use to be .


Who will you be sleeping with tonight?
J: sadly , no one .
L: BiGG BiGG .


Do you watch The Hills?
J: fuck no .
L: i use to . the first season .


Do you feel awkward when strangers say hi to you?
J: yeah .
L: sometimes .

Are you different than you were a year ago?
J: yes . totally different .
L: yes . verrrry .


Are you taller than your mom?
J: yes .
L: yes .


Is anything upsetting you right now?
J: no .
L: no , not rite now .


Whats the farthest away from home you have ever been?
J: eureka .
L: western carribean islands .


Do you hate being alone?
J: sometimes .
L: sometimes i like being alone .


When was the last time you cried?
J: new years day .
L: couple months ago i think ?


When was the last time you laughed?
J: just now .
L: sameee .


Is there someone that makes you happy everytime you see them?
J: yes .
L: yes .


Have you ever walked on the beach at night?
J: yes .
L: yes .

When you see a foggy window do you feel the need to draw or write on it?
J: HELL YEA !
L: not all the time , sometimes .

What kind of pants are you wearing?
J: not wearing pants , im wearing shorts .
L: =(


Are you in a good mood right now?
J: trying to be !! but someones pissing me off !
L: YES !! lmao


Has a boy/girl ever called you babe or baby?
J: yes .
L: yupp !


Who was the last person you took a picture with?
J: you . (lauren)
L: Maii .

What are your plans for tomorrow?
J: suck the day's dick ! (lmfaoo insiderr)
L: nothing .


What are some things you need to tell someone?
J: nothing .
L: nothing .


Have you been caught doing something you werent supposed to be doing?
J: lotta times .
L: no , i dont get caught .


Does it bother you when your friends bring up your past mistakes?
J: it doesnt bother me , i laugh about em .
L: too bad , joseph just brought one up on the phone . -__-


When was the last time you talked to your number 1?
J: right now . (rick)
L: yesterday . (maii)


If somebody liked you right now, what do you think is a cool way to tell you?
J: straight up .
L: how ever they want to .


Is there a girl/boy that knows everything or mostly everything about you?
J: yes .
L: yes .


Do you believe that if you want something bad enough you'll get it?
J: yes .
L: yup , all the timee .


What’s the best feeling in the world?
J: eat chocolate .
L: to be loved & loved back ; fully trusted .


When was the last time someone saw you in your underwear?
J: saturday night .
L: saturday night .

Whens your birthday?
J: November 18
L: October 8

How old is the first person on your top?
J: 22
L: 17


Are you looking forward to anything?
J: yes .
L: yes .


Whats the last thing you printed out?
J: i dont know .
L: damn.. i really dont know !


Does anyone on your Myspace top friends live in an apartment?
J: no , i dont think any one does .
L: yes .


Do most of your close friends live within the area or far away?
J: yes , in the area .
L: both .


Does a male or female sing the last song you listened to?
J: male
L: female

Do you think you can love someone without trusting them?
J: yes .
L: yes , but not relationship wise .


Do you mean anything to the last person you held hands with?
J: of course , why the fuck wud we be holding hands in the first place then ?
L: yupp !


Have you ever kissed anyone with braces?
J: yes .
L: yes .


Do you say sexy a lot?
J: yes .
L: not alot , but sometimes .


When was the last time you had a sleepover?
J: summer 08 .
L: saturday .


Is there anybody you're really disappointed in right now?
J: i wouldnt say really disappointed , but disappointed , yes .
L: no .


When's the last time you did something you knew was wrong?
J: when my gf broke up wit me .
L: i dnt remember .



If you could cuddle with anyone right now who would you pick?
J: bebe lauren .
L: you . (joseph)


When was the last time you wanted to punch someone in their face?
J: right now .
L: right now .


Connection between you and the last person who text messaged you?
J: my girlfriend .
L: boyfrienddd .


Would you run around a neighborhood at night without a shirt for 500 dollars?
J: i wouldnt .
L: i wouldnt .


Did you say "fuck" today?
J: yes .
L: yes .


How are you feeling right now?
J: angry
L: finee .


Have you ever kissed anyone whose name starts with D, B, J, R, A, N, or S?
J: B & J
L: B , J , & R

finally ; a REAL update ?! ahaha .

alriteyy ! so here it is !
been workin dis past week , gettin my cake uppp .
these past few weekends have all been hella chiiiiiill .
easterrrrr sundayy comin up ! myspace hereeee i commmeeee ! woo ! lol
life has been prettttyyy damn goood latelyyy . got everyyything planned out ahead & everything is lookin ooohh soo bombbb .
i been lazy to update latelyyy .
ever since i gave up myspace for lent , internet hasnt been as fun as it use to . merrr .. lol
letsssss thiiiizzle !



-- deuces .

addicted to the craftyyy ;

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LAUREEZY FUCKIN` BAYBEE !!
i just cant stop !!



-- deuces .