updateeee

Even though ive been home since this afternoon, i still feel like i havent been home in a long time ..
i'm layin in bed wit nothin really to do at the moment , so i decided to blog since i havent in a while ..

Vegas was pretty fun.. i thought it was going to be a lot more fun, but i guess its cuz i had high expectations. Still fun none the less though. The best day was Friday. Ate wingstop, shopped for hourrrssss at fashion mall wit just the girlsss<3, then hit the strip wit Maii, Ry, & Brother. On the strip, we first visited Gameworks, & i showed off my fantastical GuitarHero skills. Then hit the M&M store, looked around there, the whole place smelled like chocolate. While walking outside of all the stores, Brother & Ry were collecting "PornoMon" cards to see who could collect the most lol. We ended up meeting a white guy who tried competing. But we all knew Brother was the winner lolll. Then, once we were in front of planet hollywood, there were dancers who had a crowd watching em, & Ry decided to jump in & dance too! Lololol. As the crowd watched, he made it rain wit all the PornoMon cards he had been collecting hahaha. Great laughs there.. On our way back to Paris to meet my parents, just when we thought our night of fun was ending, we run into Timothydelaghetto, Rick, & Eric !! Catch us all on this newest vlog ! :)
Saturday was pretty cool too.. Asia buffet was bomb cuz i havent had good cream cheese wontons in a long time.. Everyone spent so much quarters on fingerbands lolol. I got a P haha. TJ Maxx was so much fun. Twizzles, Me, & Sabrina we're probably the loudest ones there from all our laughing lol! From trying on boots, sunglasses, hats, playing with lil kids toys, to stuffing Tiff inside a suitcase & dragging her all around the store! Hahahha

That was basically the highlights of the weekend.. Thinkin of all the laughs actually made me feel better.
Before i started blogging, i was upset.. But now i just dont even feel like letting boy problems get me down anymore.. Especially ones that i kno aren't gunna change..
I have so much else to be happy & thankful for that wasting energy & feeling down about shit like that isnt even worth it..
It is what it is. Survival of the fittest. I wanna be a GiRLFRiEND. Not a mother who always has to tell u right from wrong, wut to do & wut not to do.

Night night ! :)

Uggghh !!
i'm sssooooo annnoyed !
i cant wait to jst fuken leave tomorrow .
fuck this !!
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a perfect day gone to pieces ..
smfh .

i'm layin in bed.. in the dark.. its early..
for me at least..
my heart hurts.. why cant things ever be right..?
i hate all how things always seem so redundant & repetitive...
i just want to go about things the right way.
so we can be happy.... TOGETHER.

Hell .

today was so hectic.. i'm drained. maxed out to the fullest. so much drama... i thought today was gunna go well. but yet, again, it ended up in disappointment, tears, & more hurt feelings.
I guess thats wut happens when u precieve a person to be better than they truely are, or when you expect greater from a person who isnt as great as u think...
ive come to the point where i feel as if i prefer to be alone rather than have a significant other.. it feels so good to be in love.. but nothing lasts forever.. & i have never met anyone who hasnt let me down ever.
for me, dealing with loneliness isnt as hard to deal with compared to a broken heart. but the both go hand in hand..

anyway.. i dont like the emotional side of me.. i'd rather keep them all in a box, locked away for a long time..

on a brighter note.. after all the drama today, P was craving lemon pepper wings & wanted to eat out cuz he hasnt been havin a very happy week either. So we went on a mission to find a place that sold chicken wings. We googled, & to our surprise, there was a place called Hoagies & Wings right down washington! So we drive there, & another surprise... It was closed down! Wtffff. Super big disappointment cuz we both had our hearts set on lemon pepper wings... So we end up eating at the new BJ's at Fox Hills. He orders regular wings, & i ordered a salad :). Our order took foreeeeveeerrr btw. So we got a free dessert! Puzookie! It was pretty bombbb. After we ate, we walked around the mall a bit, & after, we had to do hw =( . So i helped him, & by the time we were done, phil was ready. Studied wit phil for like 3 fuken hours. Holy shat. Then went upstairs, chatted wit the twins, tita, & mamalou for a while, then drove home... & still had to do speech homework! another hour & a half. -_- talked to mama for a lil bit bout my day.. & now, finally i'm in bed... blogging. its been a while. this one makes up for it tho.

i'm beyond exhausted...


--deuces .