Hell .

today was so hectic.. i'm drained. maxed out to the fullest. so much drama... i thought today was gunna go well. but yet, again, it ended up in disappointment, tears, & more hurt feelings.
I guess thats wut happens when u precieve a person to be better than they truely are, or when you expect greater from a person who isnt as great as u think...
ive come to the point where i feel as if i prefer to be alone rather than have a significant other.. it feels so good to be in love.. but nothing lasts forever.. & i have never met anyone who hasnt let me down ever.
for me, dealing with loneliness isnt as hard to deal with compared to a broken heart. but the both go hand in hand..

anyway.. i dont like the emotional side of me.. i'd rather keep them all in a box, locked away for a long time..

on a brighter note.. after all the drama today, P was craving lemon pepper wings & wanted to eat out cuz he hasnt been havin a very happy week either. So we went on a mission to find a place that sold chicken wings. We googled, & to our surprise, there was a place called Hoagies & Wings right down washington! So we drive there, & another surprise... It was closed down! Wtffff. Super big disappointment cuz we both had our hearts set on lemon pepper wings... So we end up eating at the new BJ's at Fox Hills. He orders regular wings, & i ordered a salad :). Our order took foreeeeveeerrr btw. So we got a free dessert! Puzookie! It was pretty bombbb. After we ate, we walked around the mall a bit, & after, we had to do hw =( . So i helped him, & by the time we were done, phil was ready. Studied wit phil for like 3 fuken hours. Holy shat. Then went upstairs, chatted wit the twins, tita, & mamalou for a while, then drove home... & still had to do speech homework! another hour & a half. -_- talked to mama for a lil bit bout my day.. & now, finally i'm in bed... blogging. its been a while. this one makes up for it tho.

i'm beyond exhausted...


--deuces .