bored .

im bored with my life .
feels like theres so much to do in so little time .
something new needs to happen .

superbowl sunday was pretty fun although it could have been better..
none the less , im glad that the steelers scored that touch down with the last 35 seconds left in the game .

so far , this week has been breezing on by with no problems ..
valentine's day is coming up , it lands on a saturday ; best of all days ..
but yet , i have no valentine .. well , i do , but im not going to even be spending the day with him .
isnt the point of Valentine's day supposed to mean you spend the day with your "valentine" ??
whats the point in having one if yer not gunna spend it wit that person ?
ugh . i dont even know anymore .
i feel like im torn in half & i dont know which way to go ..
cuz im damned if i do , & im damned if i dont . so im fucked either way .
& i know whatever decision i choose , it'll wreck my brain for a cool ass minute & i'll eventually get over it , but im just so tired of constantly having to "get over it" .
i've made my mistakes in the past , but quickly & thoroughly , i made the changes necessary in order for things to go right .
when is it my turn for someone to do the same ?
is it because my expectations are too high..? honestly i dont even think i ask for much ..

right now , i feel like i wanna just get awayyy from everything .
a chance to forget about whats going on in my life . forget about school , family , friends , emotions , & definately feelings .
just take me to a place where no one knows me , wont indulge in my past ; fuck what happened before .
to give someone a chance ... a chance to get to know the REAL me .. not the one who is concerned about every move she makes , or who constantly has her guard up .
i miss the old me .. why do i feel like no one appreciates me ?
the world doesnt revolve around me . but sometimes i feel like even my real friends take me for granted .

ok .. this is blog is getting way too emo . i think thats a sign to end it here .
my emo streaks only lead me to anger . i dont make very good decisions based on anger .


--deuces .