another one of those nights .

so again, its just one of those nightsss ..
Seems like now a days yer always "sleepy"..
Theres a slight change in you.. i'm sensing somethin negative in the change..
But idk.. I dont feel like digging into it.
The disappoitment in the obvious is enuff. Finding more disappointment in the hidden isnt what i need right now.

Tomorrow is my first official day at work.
i'm kinda excited. i dont really know wut to expect, so i'm hoping by not having any expectations would be a good thing.
I kinda wanted to talk about my day, about tomorrow, all that good stuff..
But i guess me wanting to talk in the night time all the time is an inconvenience to the person i usually turn to..
To be honest.. These are the times where i really begin to miss certain things.
But i dont feel like getting into that right now..
All i need to worry about is preparing myself for what lies ahead..
I feel something bad coming along. Not soon. But soon enough.
But after, something really good is gunna happen for me.
Just a premonition tho. Could be right, could be wrong.
i'm hoping for the best tho.
I feel like somethings missing but i dont know what it is.
I feel like i'm lacking something that i desparately need right now, but idk wut it is...
I need that someone to show me what i'm missing.
Ugh.